The Story

I am tired..
I want to rest without any burden when I wake up later ..
I want someone to hug me, and say "You've done well .." "thank you .."
"you have done your best .."

When the morning comes, welcome with a smile all day ..
and then when night comes only a cry that you will hear ..

I'm afraid, they say depressed people have a weak faith ..
I can not run to anyone except God ..
but..
what I need right now is a support from the people around me ..

is it a sin if I say I'm tired of my life?
am I less grateful?
they say I should be grateful for my life right now ..
they say lots of people worse than me ..

I am grateful .. I pray every moment for life that is given to me at this time ..
but is it a sin when I'm tired of the high expectations of people about me ..?

my lifestyle started to fall apart ..
when night becomes the most comfortable time for me and day becomes a frightening time for me ..

when I wake up, I'm afraid to meet people ..
I'm afraid to hear what they say ..
I'm afraid with their gaze to me ..
I'm scared .. everything is so scary ..