My life

I want people to love me, the real me..
really painful at the moment I just want to escape for a moment of all the burdens ..  
I just wanted a short break, and for the first time I ignore my responsibilities ..  
I knew it was the wrong thing to remove the responsibility. but I only made one mistake ..  
I'm not a perfect girl, I can not promise to remain a perfect girl forever.. when others can make a mistake why can I not ?

I am currently struggling .. struggling alone to fight depression I was going through, it is not easy to go through this all without being known by people around you.

only a few close friends who knew of my condition, one of the most friends I believe she even advised me to go to a psychiatrist .. I'm afraid, my friend always says "it's okay, I'll come with you"

I was afraid not to meet with a psychiatrist, but what people see of me, perhaps in another country if depression is one of the things that really noticed but in my country, it may be as a disgrace?a shameful thing, even they will tell a depressed person is a lunatic.

I never thought that in my lifetime I will experience a depressive phase as today's most troublesome levels .. I even shut away from everyone, I do not ever want to get out of my room.I even shut myself from my family and friends .. 


This is the first story I want to write about me .. :')

A Doll

I like a doll ..
I probably was a doll ..
I was a doll ..

you who set me ..
every movement ..
every step..

I have to be perfect in your eyes ..
I should be as you want ..
because I was a doll ..